damn terbaik

it is raining outside!
yippy yay yay!
it's a good time to sleep dawg!
cold and breezy!

OH ME GOSHH

omg i'm so excited!
fuckin excited!
i can't sleep
the clock shows 2.55 am
dayyuumm
u know,
i was trying all my clothes aha
just to get ready for something
something exciting:P
i can't wait i can't wait
cepat la sabtu cepat la sabtu
*GOODNYTE NIGGAS

what can you see

i love this picture damn much
everyday i'm trying to inteprete something from this picture
can you interprte something different?

i can barely close my eyes at night

yeah
last two nights i can barely sleep
my mind was set to sleep but i don't know what went wrong
maybe i was excited about something
or scared
or miss someone that i truly love
maybe about my future
maybe about something
maybe about that
maybe about this
maybe about i've done in this life
maybe just about EVERYTHING
well all these elements were mixed up in my head
causing me a headache
so my hand were searching for my med inside the locker
i took my med and still i cant sleep
i went to the bathroom
a few times and my dad began to stare at me aha
so i took this one book
Emotional Intelligence
i learned a lot from this book
it teaches me how to be patience
how to handle backstabber and such blablablabla
pffft
so after reading a few pages
ahhh finally i can sleep
but still not that 'tido mati' kindda sleep
and this happened again on the next day
at school,i was fuckin sleepy
but i pretended to be cool aha
ahhh lega now the two days are over
i can sleep normally now

I JUST WANNA SAY

I LOVE BAT FOR LASHES
U SHOULD TOTALLY CHECK HER OUT!
SHE'S SO UNNORMAL!
pretty sounded like:cosmic wonder,lynchian alter-egos and psychedelic
AND I LOIKE IT YOW:D
SHE SAID SHE GOT FUCKED UP OF EVERYONE THINKING SHE WAS THIS MYSTERICAL CREATURE THAT DRINKS UNICORNS TEARS FOR BREAKFAST
(i read her interview in dazed and confused magazine)
she's awesome to the infinity!
real name:Ms Khan
she really loves desert!

Hospital Ward

Hospital Pantai,Bangsar
tok abah is admitted here
damn the tumour in his head reappear again
so he had his operation
and after that he's unconcious until right now
maybe his antibody is very low
i held his hand just now
it was so cold
opah was so terrible
she can't stand seeing him like that
opah is also another problem
she's not that healthy
and her pain indicates when she saw tok abah
everybody in this ward is hoping praying hard
we all in the ward had our kurma adn yogurt for buka puasa
everybody didnt wanna leave the ward
i'm sleeping over here tonight with long yana
opah has no longer having her strength to see her husband unconcious
so i had to sacrifice to look after the old man tonight
i shall be back to kajang after sahur
i hope he will open his eyes soon.
INSYAALLAH

nightmare

I had a really tough week.only god knows the suffer that I faced.thank god I have my 2 great friends,both I called them my advisors.they had never fail to build up my strength back.i could barely know myself.the way I supposed to be,the way people treat me,the way I treat people.it’s all mixed up in my head bac then.my tears surround me at night.my heart started to ache badly.their words are still in my head-the words which makes me stronger.after talkin to them,i feel so calm,my tears ain’t comin back and I start living.living as a new person,new way of perspective.i thank god for having them in this life.at least I’m not that alone and the pain becomes less to keep.they showed me how people treat us in this life.even bestfriend could ditched us like garbage.they said something that I should regert all this while-it is all about trust.trusting the untrustable.i mean,I was blind.they woke me up.woke me up showing me how detestable can people be,although the person is our bestfriend or whatsoever.i was wrong all this while.fuckin wrong.i will never ever gonna remember u,anything about you.u were just acting back then.enough of all this.enough I tell u.i hope u’ll get the punishment.i know u will.and I hope u’ll get the worst nightmare in your life.i know karma will do it for me.and I just have to wait.your time will come