i can barely close my eyes at night

yeah
last two nights i can barely sleep
my mind was set to sleep but i don't know what went wrong
maybe i was excited about something
or scared
or miss someone that i truly love
maybe about my future
maybe about something
maybe about that
maybe about this
maybe about i've done in this life
maybe just about EVERYTHING
well all these elements were mixed up in my head
causing me a headache
so my hand were searching for my med inside the locker
i took my med and still i cant sleep
i went to the bathroom
a few times and my dad began to stare at me aha
so i took this one book
Emotional Intelligence
i learned a lot from this book
it teaches me how to be patience
how to handle backstabber and such blablablabla
pffft
so after reading a few pages
ahhh finally i can sleep
but still not that 'tido mati' kindda sleep
and this happened again on the next day
at school,i was fuckin sleepy
but i pretended to be cool aha
ahhh lega now the two days are over
i can sleep normally now