i keep reminding myself

that this life ain't a fairytale
not all love story has a happy ending
but i guess it is just so hard to take it that way
i'm still living in the world of fantasy
dreaming about a good life while obviously the world is becoming more cruel day by day
i have to stop hoping that people that i truly love will love me back the way i love them
i've learnt my lesson that people change
i saw them changing with my naked eyes
alhamdulillah Allah gave a sign and showed me the truth
although the truth hurts but still i have to move on
i was emotionally distracted
seriously
i don't have the virtue to lead my everyday life
than goodness i have this amazing bestfriend of mine
banyak dah die tolong
aizad also,he never stops from building my strength back
i don't look back nowadays
what is passed is passed
i will never turn back
i'll never change back
i'll never give a damn to you motherfuckers
i won't

hari ini

damn penat siyal harini.i was forced to get up early about 7 something camtu kot damn damn dah la malam tadi tido pkul 3 lebih.gila mengantok aku!pastu mama ajak makan dekat ayza la hahaha favourite guaa hahaha then dah makan balik kejap pulak sebab phone tertinggal pastu pergi bangi pegi ambil ubat dinie pastu datang kajang balik buat specs mama pastu pegi parkson pulak cari cookie jar bla bla and jojo and fifi punya hadiah.all the things kat parkson like not good enough.as i was waiting for mama,aku tertido la pulak hahaha memang mengantuk gila pastu pegi jusco pulak adoi nie sebab present for jojo dengan fifie la nie haha pastu beli la kan sebab dah takde other great choices pastu balik rumah.pastu ya call pulak suruh dtg rumah die and WAJIB pakai baju kurung.aku macam shit betul mas tu.aku pun tukarla baju pastu tak jadi pegi pulak.pegi saujana pi jumpe nisaa dgn miyra alahai budak kecik dua ekor nie xboleh kuar pulak ahaii bukannya nak bgtau awal2 sabar je la aku haaa.pastu terserempak pulak dengan syira and tah sape kawan die.pastu aku hantarkan la kawan die tu balik aha aku kan memang baik dalam menghabiskan petrol kereta hahaha pastu kredit phone habis pulak arghh shit pegi pulak 7-11 dengan syira.terbang rm10 aku aduhhh pastu hantar syira balik.pastu balik rumah,aku rest la kejap.legaaaaaa.pastu malam aku kene pegi putarjaya pulak jemput emma.macam shit betul minah nie hahaha tadelah emma baik!hahaha pastu dah jemput emma pegi makan la pulak dengan papa n dinie pastu pegi tmn tun pulak hantar emma pastu jemput aidil yang nk balik saujana hahaha pastu mama suruh pegi tesco pulak beli groceries dan akhirnya aku smpai jua di rumah.amin.haha

you don't know

that i cry at night
i'm hurt when u just put me aside

regreted

damn
why do i have to drink coffee today?
damn damn damnnn
it's like i can't control myself from drinking it
ahaii macam drugs pulak
now my heartbeat is getting faster
alahai mane pulak ubat nie
jap jap cari ubat

aku merana macamnie la

alahai bila la korang nak blah nie
aku dah la lemas nie
tunggang langgang hidup aku korang buat
tak cukup tido pulak tuue
cepat la balik

malam dua puluh empat sep

malammm nie best gilaa i thought that i was dreaming la got lah my 3 friends nie poyo2 je la kan kata nak dtg kajang ingatkan bohong je omg sekali tu betul2 omg best gila last night my 3 crazy friends nie ya allah tak habis2 dengan jokes diaorang omg best gila!tapi sayang betul xdpt nk stay longer!thanx to them la kan sebab susah2 dtg kajang hahaha and this 3 monkeys are the best!they rock!:D

Hari Raya Aidilfitri

oh mann
it's gonna be so LAME
seriously
everybody is like so not in the mood of rayaing betul tak?
raise up your hands if you say yes dude!
aha i know there's plenty of u agree with this
i mean cmon bapak lame la lepas raya
then exam
WTH?
pastu masa raya takut gila nak enjoy lebih2 tak ingat dunia
kang mase exam memang sucks la kan
haha
well my preparation for raya is a lil bit like dimmed je
mommy hasn't buy anything macam kuih ke ape
ttapi cookie jar yang dibel!
ya allah sebesar alamm
tapi kuihnya tiada
so sekarang nie i'm so looking forward to eat tante rose punya cornflakes
i've never miss it every year!
but few days ago i thought i;m not gonna taste her kuih lagi!
aha damnn
i was so frustrated!
but suddenly kakak suhaila called me up and die kata nanti die buatkan!
oh man kakak suhaila i love you!<3
because of her,my dimmed spirit for rayaing macam not so dimmed la haha
KUIH CORNFLAKES RULES!

ashwini the birthday gal

omg shit gila aku nie
lupa la on 8 sep 09 die punya bithday
aku pun bangang sebab die dah hint2 aku pasal birthday die tapi aku buat dek je
ahaha
ashwini i'm so sorry!
hahahaha
i know i'm a bad friend hahaha
but still i wished u ayte
SO HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ASHWINI ARUMUGAM!
MAY GOD BLESS YOU!

macam aku peduli sangat

sekarang nie ramai yang nak populariti
sampai sanggup mati
sampai sanggup ludah kat muka kawan sejati
apa yang bagus sangat benda kau kejar?
setakat famous sementara baik tak payah la setaan
baik kau balik kampung tanam jagung lagi baik
tak ke mana kau tu
contohnya kalau kat myspace,
sekarang nie semua manusia berlumba nak ada myspace la facebook la ym la itu la ini la
siyal rimas aku
biar mati ah benda tu!
setakat nak ade bnda alah semua tu just nak glamor sana sini
dedah itu ini
baik dengan orang tu baik dengan orang nie
baik tapayah
jadi diri sendiri la derr
aku memang tau aku bukannya baik sangat pun tapi aku memang suke tengok perwatakan orang
yang diperbodohkan,orang memperbodohkan dan sama2 pun bodoh
haaaa lagi satu punya hal
kau nak cakap aku sombong ?
kau cakap ah
aku peduli ape
siapa yang kenal aku baru la tau aku camane
aku peduli ape kau nak cakap ape belakang aku
senang cerita,aku tak kacau kau kau tak kacau aku
haaaaa
siyal betul sesetengah manusia sekarang
sanggup aniaya kawan sendiri sebab mamat2 yang die kenal kat myspace
si polan nie kata yang mamat tu kawan dgn dia dulu la
si polan lagi satu nie kata äku kawan dulu dengan die la
ahhhh pegi mampus
kalau aku,aku biarkan je
lantak kau nak kawan dengan sape
tengok kau dapat tak cari kawan sejati!
rimas aku dengan benda nie
siapa tahu,ade la minah nie,lepas die buat myspace la facebook la
fuhhhh tak ingat dunia
kira macam semua orang suke kat die la
sampai kawan lame lupaaa doe!
aniaya kawan lame pulak tu!
ape nak jadiiii
yang dia lagi agungkan die punya kawan kat internet
memang lupa diri dah la
alangkah bagusnya kalau kita semua kat dunia nie tak kene aniaya dengan orang sebegini
nampaknya bukan semua orang
ade segelintir yang dah kena
hahaha
sabar je lah

THE FRAY

i have been admiring these guys like so a long tyme ago
these guys really rocks
and their music
pehhh wa cakap dengan lu!
their musics really make me think about my life,the people around me and such
i listen to their songs like what?every night before i sleep i guess
in their album,there are 10 tracks-aren't enough for me actually:)
well there is one song which really reminds me of ah:D
"YOU FOUND ME" can really makes me cry-serious siyal
the second track is happiness
i hope one day they'll be heading to malaysia because i know they have many fans out there including MEEEE!
but that day,i watched them live on stage during the american music award(kalau x salah la)
it was suckish mayn!
yeahh
macam x best la pulak kan bila live x sedap!
but nevermind
i still want them to perform here in malaysia!
THE FRAY ROCKS BEBEH!

BORED.

arghhhhh
i am so bored
i'm not in the mood to finish up my homework
i'm not in the mood to clean up my room
my mum has been forcing me to clean it up since like-a few weeks ago
aha fuck me
but i am in the mood to be presence on myspace and this shit thang haha
and i'm also in the mood of talking!
jyeahhh
so jast now i've called up shaz and now!
who's my next victim?
hahaha just wait for my cell num to appear on your phone
oh my goodness i'm also looking forward to go to bangsar and meet my cousins
and hell yeah i'm also bloody looking forward for a nice AYAM GOLEK in bangsar for buka puasa
*oh man my tummy is grouling now
well i'm very sleepy
but i can't sleep
the clock shows 2.05 pm
i'm still wearing shorts and big t-shirt
and i haven't bathe yet haha
this house is full of silence today
arghhh memang la boring gila
dini is having her tuiton
long yana is probably asleep kot
aaaaaaahhh:(
babah and mama is reading newspaper
and me-staring at this bullshit piece of technology called pc
ahhhhh i'm so bored
i got no one to talk to
damn
alaaaaahai ezza

thanx ah

thanx to my beloved twins
hakim and arinna=)
u guys rocks sangat sangat der
they blanje buka puasa kt tgi
to kakak suhaila,hang balik la cepat cepat naa

mengumpat dalam bulan puasa nie

subahanallah
haha
tadi lepas sahur
my bestfriend called me up
aha saje die ingat aku x bangun sahur lagi
haha derr aku dah bangun la
then cakap2 la
then skali terkeluaq la pasal si polan nie
omg sial!
kitaorang kutuk habis pasal die
sejam lebih tu on the phone
haha
aku tau aku perlu bawak banyak beristighfar haha
tapi entah la sebab susah nak dengar si polan nie kene kutuk haha
bukan la kutuk teruk sangat pun
benda betul la-pasal orang sekeliling si polan nie fikir pasal die
hahaha
pastu ade la jugak pasal politik la and friends
jyeah

tok abah still macam tu jugak
i'm waiting here dengan yana
it's clod here but i like it
totally!

damn terbaik

it is raining outside!
yippy yay yay!
it's a good time to sleep dawg!
cold and breezy!

OH ME GOSHH

omg i'm so excited!
fuckin excited!
i can't sleep
the clock shows 2.55 am
dayyuumm
u know,
i was trying all my clothes aha
just to get ready for something
something exciting:P
i can't wait i can't wait
cepat la sabtu cepat la sabtu
*GOODNYTE NIGGAS

what can you see

i love this picture damn much
everyday i'm trying to inteprete something from this picture
can you interprte something different?

i can barely close my eyes at night

yeah
last two nights i can barely sleep
my mind was set to sleep but i don't know what went wrong
maybe i was excited about something
or scared
or miss someone that i truly love
maybe about my future
maybe about something
maybe about that
maybe about this
maybe about i've done in this life
maybe just about EVERYTHING
well all these elements were mixed up in my head
causing me a headache
so my hand were searching for my med inside the locker
i took my med and still i cant sleep
i went to the bathroom
a few times and my dad began to stare at me aha
so i took this one book
Emotional Intelligence
i learned a lot from this book
it teaches me how to be patience
how to handle backstabber and such blablablabla
pffft
so after reading a few pages
ahhh finally i can sleep
but still not that 'tido mati' kindda sleep
and this happened again on the next day
at school,i was fuckin sleepy
but i pretended to be cool aha
ahhh lega now the two days are over
i can sleep normally now

I JUST WANNA SAY

I LOVE BAT FOR LASHES
U SHOULD TOTALLY CHECK HER OUT!
SHE'S SO UNNORMAL!
pretty sounded like:cosmic wonder,lynchian alter-egos and psychedelic
AND I LOIKE IT YOW:D
SHE SAID SHE GOT FUCKED UP OF EVERYONE THINKING SHE WAS THIS MYSTERICAL CREATURE THAT DRINKS UNICORNS TEARS FOR BREAKFAST
(i read her interview in dazed and confused magazine)
she's awesome to the infinity!
real name:Ms Khan
she really loves desert!

Hospital Ward

Hospital Pantai,Bangsar
tok abah is admitted here
damn the tumour in his head reappear again
so he had his operation
and after that he's unconcious until right now
maybe his antibody is very low
i held his hand just now
it was so cold
opah was so terrible
she can't stand seeing him like that
opah is also another problem
she's not that healthy
and her pain indicates when she saw tok abah
everybody in this ward is hoping praying hard
we all in the ward had our kurma adn yogurt for buka puasa
everybody didnt wanna leave the ward
i'm sleeping over here tonight with long yana
opah has no longer having her strength to see her husband unconcious
so i had to sacrifice to look after the old man tonight
i shall be back to kajang after sahur
i hope he will open his eyes soon.
INSYAALLAH